Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
* back from a 5 day business trip to cochin
* never seen so many doctors at one place
* i know now for a fact that doctors love "free bags" any shape, size and colour :D
* even the greatest companies in the world are no greater than the people they employ
* the quality of your work is a direct result of the quality of you
* the most tiring work is made good with the satisfaction of a job well done...and the company of K!!
* god's own country.... i just wish you had children who treated you better.....
* explored jew town... was amazing how my perspective changes each time i visit....
* was sad to see the synagogue...slowly getting engulfed by the "indian emporiums"
* bought the freshest spices ever
* had the loveliest time at a charming place called Old Harbour Hotel...am so glad we wound up our trip with a dinner here.... am in love with fort kochi again
* no matter how much you love to travel, how fabulous the place, how important and successful the work...you missed your home, as much as she missed you......
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Friday, November 13, 2009
do you know it will be a long lonely evening and the extra chai you brewed will come in handy?
do you wonder who's calling the landline everyone knows you never answer when its ringing.... like right now?
do you think you have spent too much time alone when you begin to think everything is a blogpost?
do you cringe when you know cringe when you know company is on its way?? :(
Thursday, November 12, 2009
as an aside, i am watching pati patni aur woh on tv right now .... its time for the teenagers...and for once, the teenagers are more ridiculous than the "celebrities"..... oh and btw,....that babe juhi parmar is giving a whole new take to obnoxious......
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
for those of us who need all the help we get to run our homes...and if you arent the kind of person who has to cherry pick every tomato you slice, if you rely mostly on the vegetable racks in the supermarkets and if your bitter half groans at the thought of weekly vegetable buying chores, here's some good news. especially for those who live in hyderabad / secunderabad, here's an online service that delivers fresh vegetables to your door step. i have been using their service for the last 2 months. i have been disappointed only once with the quality of tomatoes (!) they are very receptive to feedback and immediately replaced them. Just login to getthebest.com they accept all credit and debit cards, you can also pay cash on delivery. there's a pretty wide range of vegetables and they're going to add fruit very soon. they deliver the same day if the order is placed before 4 pm, and they're not anal about leaving the vegetables with the chowkidar/ maids. you can leave instructions about where they can leave the stuff incase they come by and you arent at home!!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
Thursday, October 29, 2009
does anyone want love in their lives?
Saturday, October 24, 2009
I'd been reading about images and content being used in print media without permission, taken from blogs, online resources and especially pictures taken from online photo sharing sites. at Diwali i noticed pictures from two fellow bloggers being used in the Times of India supplement, i intimated the bloggers and they will take whatever action they deem fit. This morning, I was quite shocked to see one of my pictures being used in the TV guide supplement of Deccan Chronicle in a recipe for Hara Bhara kabab, taken from my flickr stream.
While I am quite flattered that one of the largest circulated english dailies in India thought my picture was worthy enough to print, i am absolutely shocked that they do this without any attempt to seek permission to use the image, compensate and credit the owner of the picture.
I wonder if the editors even know of this practice, or are actually endorsing it. I've written to A T Jayanti who is the editor of DC in hyderabad. Am awaiting her response.
there is a blogpost by Twilight fairy that talks of how she dealt with her pictures being published without permission. the issue has since been solved, thanks to her following up of the matter.
Update: the editor of DC was quick to respond. Jayanti wrote back with thanks of bringing this matter to her notice, saying there was no explanation for having used the picture and the “young team” knows it is plagiarism and they know its unethical (pray then, if they know it is, why do they do it?). Also with her sincere apologies, has promised to republish the picture in the next edition of TV Guide with credit given to me.
Everyone said this was normal for newspapers to take pictures off the internet and use them and that i shouldn’t make much of it, and just let it be. I am glad for the fact that I didnt. The question in my mind is this, is an apology enough? Plus lets just see if they keep their word and actually republish the picture with credit to me….
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
i went to one such place i'd like to own someday (soon) yesterday. i loved the stuff they had and the way it was displayed and the way the staff doesnt breathe down your neck. i want that.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
I've had inspiration from many photoblogs and decided it was ok to try and be not as impressive.... so really, am not trying to prove a point to anyone. i dont want to find my niche or anything else.... just post pictures that i have been hoarding on my HDD!!
Friday, August 28, 2009
its friday evening...i've had a pretty nice day at work and so some of the irritation from yesterday has worn off. am waiting for k to come home from work....and while he's still not here, i've done all the girly stuff.... dim lights around the house (he likes the tubelights on!!), music and scented candles on the balcony from where i am writing this...
its going to be a great weekend... i just know...whether we go out or stay in, i just know it will be nice and relaxing and wonderful... i hope you have a good weekend too. Cheers!
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
so we went to this club which has three divisions (yeah!!) the main club was closed for a private party (i think they just made it up because it was a weeknight and it would not be profitable to keep it open for just a handful of people...), there was a sky bar which had a jam session being set up and the third part was a jazz bar. this had a lovely view of the busy street from the bar stools. and perched up on the 7th floor it looked fantastic. an added bonus fairy light effect was made by the incessant rain.
i wanted to sit with my feet up and so we chose a sofa, ordered for our drinks and got chatting. A was just back from a holiday in sri lanka and was making me most jealous with all her tales. she met an old friend who introduced us to two women, who then joined us. after a while another lady was introduced to us and joined the group. I must say, its been a while since i have last spent any time or had any conversation with complete strangers. the whole thing, far from being boring or obligatory was so refreshing and interesting. Two of the women were not indian. so it was obviously interspersed with their experiences here, their views on the workplace, generally living in hyderabad etc.
no prejudices, likes or dislikes, preconceived notions, nothing. just plain talking, drinking, giggling and having a good time! i want more of this!!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
the cook just kills me with one question unfailingly every morning...."what shall i make?".... why cant she remember all the things that she has made so far and repeat? i have now told her that everytime she asks me what to make, i will cut 20 bucks from her pay. She giggles....and repeats....i think it is time to cut pay.
Even tho i am writing a blog post this morning about this, as Amma hustles and bustles getting ready for her flight back to bangalore, i fully acknowledge that these are the women who set me free. they run my home, do the chores, handle my kitchen and allow me to blog on the mornings before i set out to do anything else. they've also taught me important lessons. my first experience at becoming a better manager has been taught by the ones i employ. They've shown me first hand how praise and encouragement works. they've shown me how my mood affects others. they've taught me to delegate, to train, to manage conflicts, to trust and more importantly to let go. the last part has been very difficult. tho i didnt have too much of a choice but to get a cook. I wondered how i could accept something that was such a big part of my life. i wonder sometimes if it is some one else's life I am living . From being totally untrusting of people to do things the way i want them to be done, to now being able to extract the results i want, i think this education has been priceless.
like all other relationships, trust works the best. So does acknowledging and acting on your gut feel. i have never been happy with someone who gave off uncomfortable vibes. praise and motivation works. So does the fact that they are spoken to in a calm and even tone., even the most demanding of works gets done. Screaming has never paid dividends to anyone. giving them fresh food is a plus. While most maids welcome leftovers to take back home, they really are delighted when they can eat the same breakfast as we do. While Maslow's theory of the Hierarchy of needs is something that has proved itself again and again, most of us look for the same things in an employer. Stability, value and a peaceful work environment. Give them something to brag about in their basti, and you will have no "bai" problems. its easier to deal with the question of the day rather than spend precious time doing chores when you could rather be chasing your dreams....
Saturday, August 22, 2009
First stop was the GVK One mall in banjara hills. it is huge no doubt, but somehow lacks the persona i'd have expected from a building of this magnitude....on a weekend, was crowded and we had the most obnoxious bunch of rowdy teens for company in the lift which went up and down a few times before we could get off on the right floor. We headed straight to the Triumph store who were having an upto 70% sale. funny, what you really want to buy will never be on sale! anyways, i managed to find something i really liked and then we headed to Shopper's Stop...picked up a few gifts for my niece. Headed over to City Centre Mall where i wanted to have "good" chinese food so we headed to aromas of china. i really get pissed with unruly and ill behaved kids in public places. and cant for the life of me understand why parents stand around without correcting their behaviour. its almost a style statement now to have a bratty ill tempered child in tow (and hey, the excuse of "where else will they leave them" doesnt apply. Leave them at home...and you stay with them too). since all that fab food around me was calming my nerves, i managed to have lunch without losing my temper. the servings are really large and so we have dinner also packed and ready!!
once fed and full filled, we headed to the wellspun showroom downstairs that had a sale and i picked up some much needed fluffy bath towels at a throwaway price. K wanted to make the customary stop at crosswords, but once we reached there he got claustrophobic with the crowds and wanted to leave. i stayed in a line forever to get the book and cd i picked up for rachel billed. the next part was the envisioned nightmare! driving into ameerpet,, to get some cartoon / animal printed sheets for rachel's baby cot. we couldn't find anything satisfactory in the malls, so we decided the regular stores would be a better bet. K was dreading this, but thankfully it wasn't as bad as he would have liked (so he could crib afterwards). we went to my favourite shop for all seasons, Narsingh. its amazing!! the variety that these Mom and Pop stores have. they are minus the frills and hence can pass on the price benefit to the customer. this guy sells everything from fabric to readymades, linen and towels and you name it and he has it. he has 6 stores and together must be doing better business than a high end super store.
finally waded through traffic in the main bazar leading to our place, because tomorrow being ganesh chaturthi, vendors were selling all the stuff needed for the pooja and got back home. to have dear uncle and aunty P and N waiting to see amma before she leaves. nothing like a cup of hot chai to refresh us. and we aren't a garrulous family for nothing!! i am just so happy with the way today turned out that i came here to type!! i'd better go now to help amma pack all the stuff she has accumulated. nothing like some good ole retail therapy to cheer me up... yesterday i was under the weather.... now i feel great!!
while i have been restless, my mind has been going berserk.... listlessness is one thing, listless and uninspired is quite another.... i wonder how the ones' who focus without any distractions do it.
Friday, August 21, 2009
sometimes the overhang looks lovely and allows me to forget i live in an apartment.... most of the times, the craving to have a home with a 'real' garden almost chokes me!
while it isn't difficult to start a small green corner in whatever space you have, it takes a little time and effort to maintain it. i've always watched amma tend to her plants and take great pride in each new leaf. i guess it came quite naturally. but when 4 old yogurt containers multiplied and became what it is today i really dont know. i just cant seem to rid myself of a few. i have ornamental plants, flowering plants, seasonal plants and herbs for the kitchen. it doesnt just sound like a lot....
i kind of like to think they have their own personality and their life will take its course and that i should give them the most conducive environ to live in and not interfere more than necessary.......i know it kind of sounds a bit looney!! but well... that's the truth! what do you think?
K says i am zooming in on everything except the dustbin and the potty!! he's a reluctant muse and so i am clicking everything else that i can.
a friend of ours, also gave me a basic lesson on lighting and aperture and shutter speed etc and i am experimenting.....
funny how much you want something, and when you get it, its unfamiliar and scary so you stick with the old faithful!! more on that soon.... also my progress i will chart here... wish me luck....and yeah a little imagination too!!
Monday, July 20, 2009
the sun burn is better. one patch on my neck is sporting new skin in a lighter colour. i guess it will be some more time before i begin to look a little bit like my old self. K too has a huge patch of molting skin on his arm and he's taken a fancy to peeling it off in the most disgusting fashion!
work's been good. its always nice to get back into the routine. also good when work seems to have missed you! the only thing was, for a few days, i woke up not knowing where i was!!
i've not been regular with my yoga. what with all the travelling. the yoga mat rolled up and sitting in the corner of my room beckons a few times, but not very forcefully. so am really not blaming anyone. the thing with my benevolent self is, i take full responsibility for my laziness!
on friday we went out pubbing with another couple. have i said it before? that when the songs you like are played on a "retro night" you know you've grown old!! we had fun. i just loved all the stuff they played and did a little armchair dancing!! stuck to my one drink per evening decision (on the days that we go out!!) the waiter was really surprised at my second order of diet coke!!
dear friend B came back from her europe trip (we were supposed to go together) on saturday and we pored over the pictures she brought back. she came bearing gifts!! a french coffee press, fridge magnet and an olive tree wood cross from the holyland.
Sunday was a lazy day. i cooked and cooked in the evening, but it was fun!!
while it hasnt been hectic, this has been a good week. only dampner was that k is still under the weather.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
much joy as the holiday gave me, humbled me and awed me, i am honest maybe even silly when i will admit that i had the most blissfully refreshing sleep in my own bed when we got back!
the travelogue will be written and posted. it was nearly a 2 week vacation, so there's lots to be written. in the meanwhile, regular life is to be lived. bags unpacked, clothes washed, meals to be cooked and work to be done. also, battered bodies to be brought back to some kind of normalcy.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
its been a rough and tough month for k and me. we've not had alone time in more than a couple of months. work has kept us busy and the weekends have been busier. plus we have constantly been around people which isnt a bad thing, they're all friends, but it leaves us no time for each other....
where did our spontaneous nature go? for the last few months it has been lost in the mundane....
so this morning, as i was getting ready for work, we decided to spend the day together. we booked ourselves into a day spa. a deep cleansing scrub, water therapy in a jacuzzi that had milk added to it ( i felt like cleopatra, K found it weird) and a relaxing deep tissue massage later... we were on our way to bliss.....
nirva spa, at the ella suites at gachibowli is where we went. and tho we chose it for proximity, i will recommend it to everyone. they know their business and practice their craft well. for those 4 hrs. they make you totally forget that you are in a busy city. it transported us to a more exotic place.... and i think that was the purpose!!
what a way to spend a day.... if you saw us today... you saw happy people!! i cant remember the last time we had such a beautifully relaxing day.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
i've been wanting one for years now... the press on ones never give you the same look and feel... last week, i made one attempt, terrified after i saw my friend got her's done, while she screamed and held my hand, wrung it so i thought my bones would be crushed, i chickened out. on the bangalore trip, with a couple of friends to hold my hand, i decided to try it again. ofcourse it did help that there was a teenaged girl in front of me who had about "no more place on my ear lobe" type of piercings and came in to do one more.... on a whim, i asked the guy to do mine.... then chickened out again.... then was feeling quite like a wuss..... gritting my teeth and holding the hand of my friend in a vice like grip, i had the piercing done!! i must say, it was less painful than i thought it would be, like a really thick needle injection... much less than having your underarms waxed, much less than having your nail bed injected with medicine becuase your toe nail got ripped out!! so impressed was i, that i got my ears pierced for a second stud...and actually contemplated a third one too!! waht did i tell you about my addiction to excesses?
oh!! and must i say it looks super sexy?? bringing me crash landing tho was my mom who was pissed, and glared at me!!
Monday, June 15, 2009
still for weight loss i will live with dark circles!!
Monday, June 8, 2009
now with that out of the way, i can help make you green eyed and jealous about how i now go for a walk every morning(well most mornings of course), watch tv!!, call my mother everyday and dont rush her to speak fast cos something on the stove is burning, read the papers, attempt the crossword, and get served breakfast wherever i am sitting!
after months and months of debate, i decided, i wouldnt be any less the enthusiastic cook or diminish my skills as the keeper of my home..... infact K actively pushed me towards it cos god knows the poor man had an instant noodle overdose when i was laid up in bed. its not so much that i didnt want to hire someone... it was just that i couldnt make up my mind about wanting to slave drive my poor arm into numbness or have someone help me...
for almost a month, my regular maid, had pity on me and would roll out rotis (which was forbidden by the doc) and chop veggies, but on the days when i had an early day at work, or something else cropped up, we'd go back to ordering take away.... spending far more money than i wish to acknowledge....
a few things apart from having someone else feed my beloved k haunted me... like how would i manage two maids? will they get at each other? and in a one up womanship will they make life miserable first thing in the morning for me? will i like what she makes? will k like what she makes?
after all this nonsensical debate, i finally just called a few, interviewed them and hired one.
its been 4 weeks. so far, no one is dead!! she makes us breakfast and lunch. i rustle up an easy dinner once i am back from work. it has been so much better not just for my arm and neck, it freed up enough time from the morning for me to take up yoga!
while on account of the food.... this is where i learn to let go. tell myself that its ok for the food to not be perfect or for me to be less fastidious. that she can make what she knows to make and we will be grateful for the food she packs for us. plus that i am making far too much of a fuss over this!!
i enjoy cooking yes. and i can indulge when i want to, or have to. so then there.... i've said it....
Friday, June 5, 2009
to judge your own child because she hasnt "settled down". to tell her, she needs to be married to live in this society. that even if the guy is nothing like she wants in a partner, she should "compromise" cos she is thirty plus? and to wash away all that she is, as a person, as a woman and as a successful manager just because she hasnt yet said "i do"? what kind of person will do all of this?
and what is it with us? that we cant leave someone alone to decide their own course in life? that we always think we have the solution or the wisdom to help them make a "better choice". that everyone around us is not intelligent enough to choose for themselves? like so, what are you going to do after your studies? when are you getting married? when are you having kids? when are you settling down? that the next milestone will bring them nirvana? why cant we mind our own damn business? and who says marriage is the best thing in the world? that you are incomplete without it? i know of atleast 10 friends and acquaintances with relationships in shambles. so who the hell are we to judge?
i feel for this friend of mine. that she politely has to get out of conversations which finally come to "so...when are you giving us good news" when she wants to tell them to F off.... i really wish everyone, her father included will just stop breathing down her back.... you dont realise how much strenght it takes to take all this crap and still keep smiling.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
A and i decided it was time to buy me some footwear! we drove to a famed store that just put us off. whats with the garish blingy stuff? it was ridiculous. spanky new mall to the rescue, we tried on a load of stuff before i settled on two pairs of sensible footwear for regular office wear... regular but smart! we crawled around the place a bit... stopping to try on some make up. i am so scared of eye make up and my friend loves it... so she with glittery eyelids and i with heavy mascara, walked around a bit and then finally left. not before some very average banana bread though. next stop was a couple of designer dens. my friend A is a fashion designing graduate, we dropped in at a couple of stores of her friends. one was colourful and alternative and not really my style, an eclectic mix of kitsch boho and eccentric. some stuff like the accessories i loved, but the clothes were just not me! we hopped in next door to meet another friend. this place had stuff like what i would like to see myself wearing. lovely colours, fabrics and cuts. i mooned over quite a few and thought to myself that i would pay him a visit, when i was a few kgs lighter!! next stop was an ethnic indian store with stuff that uses natural fabric and colours. i was totally zonked out by that time and headed home!!
mondays should be made like this, friends, food and shopping.oooh and did i mention i acquired a brand new lipcolor from YSL? no? ok... i did...and it looks hot!!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
for the last few weeks post the neck incident, i have been scouting around for a proper low intensity fitness option. every where i went, power yoga came screaming out at me because of its current popularity with the celebrities. tho it guarantees the fastest weight reduction, with my current state of shoulder and neck, i cant take this easy route out. it apparently makes you sweat like a very intense cardio session. so this power trip was off limits for me.
i now have found, not so close to home, a place where they will teach in small groups of 7-8, yoga to suit the individual need. after a phone call and a detailed personal meeting during which i told them half of my life history, i enrolled for a three times a week class. i told them i had issues with commitment... lets just hope this works!!
Monday, May 18, 2009
thanks to social networking sites, i got back in touch with R... . we began to chat online quiet frequently over the last 4-5 months. With the stability and security my own life gives me today, i realised that she was as clueless as i was about why we circled each other with mistrust. i was in a safe place, safe enough to lower my guard and strike up a friendship with her. secure enough to know that she was just another person and would in no way make me feel inferior. because in the past, both she and i were very wary of each other and insecure in the other's presence.
the tables had turned. my life was more interesting this time around. and she asked, questions with wonder and appreciation .... told me how much she envied what i was doing....and generally made me feel, she was just another girl being friends with me...and that we do appear contrary to what we actually are as a defense to protect ourselves.
we'd talked over the phone when it got too frenetic to type. we spoke at length about how and why i made the choices i did. i realise now that she hardly said anything about her own. except that she wanted to do something of interest. i told her about starting a home business and all the possibilities it opened up for her. she was excited and we made plans for her to visit me at the end of this month, stay with me and learn all she could about chocolate making. at the end of that conversation, we did say to each other, how refreshing it was to exchange the mistrust for this new found friendship.... and we laughed at the silliness of yesterday....
R took her life yesterday. i still cant believe it. i got a very emotional message from her a few days ago. i asked her why she sent it and she said she was glad we got this second chance and that she found me and friendshop with me.....i wonder what made her do this. was she so alone and helpless? so desperate that she didnt care about living anymore? what was it that made her do this? except tell me her routine, she never spoke about her life....
a life so worthless, that you wanted to discard it? so unhappy with something that you couldnt share it with anyone? i dont know what else to write.... i still have her messages in my phone....
Thursday, May 14, 2009
i now get resumes atleast twice a week delivered by email. and calls from people i wont even acknowledge in the street if i passed. All calls begin with a shrill voice "hiiiiiiiiiiiii! how are you? long time yaar!" yeah, like i didnt know.... these very same people who bitched about me getting better work, getting away with not doing much and other such "i dont know how she got there when we too deserve this" kind of sour grapes gossip..... now ask me completely amazed with jaw on the floor (this i am not so sure of because we talk on the phone) expressions of "how i managed to get a job in the recessive market when all support functions are facing layoffs?"
because i am bloody good at what i do is what i feel like telling them!! but then, restraint is something i am trying to get good at...and i realise that it wont score me a point to say this...the fact that they are calling me up itself is punishment enough. so i respond depending upon the time i can spare and my mood, as vaguely as i can, and then hang up. then wait for the resumes to come into my mail box....
i realise that i have been very lucky. to do the work i do and do it well. not many have that. Which means, despite not wanting to suck up to anyone, i still didn't have to call people i didnt like very much and ask them if there was anything available. i wont screw that up.... so i wont mess with my work. period. that should take care of everything else!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
i dont really need forwards to tell me who loves me...the people in my life already do.......so yeah, while i dont need the replies to tell me how important i am to people, i wonder what makes the relationships i am in work? take my newly formed friendships for instance. in the past 2 years that i have been blogging, i have found some endearing people...they will stay on with me regardless of how much longer i continue to blog... and on the other hand, i look at the friends i have collected on social networking sites that confuse me. hell, at last count i had 293 on a popular site...surely at 2 a.m if i need someone, i wont be looking there! one of these days i need to run through that list and purge myself of all those who i actually dont know and recognise....i mean, yeah you add people for various reasons...and i've been able to get in touch with long lost classmates and cousins thrice removed....so its nice that way... but every once in a while i am reminded that i may be someone's "contact" just to add numbers and make the friends list more robust.... yeah...there i said it!!
i've had some of the most amazing people come into my life, and regardless of not being in touch with them to know what outfit they wore on monday morning to work, i dont think of those in the past tense. my best friend i havent spoken to for 3 yrs. when i do, i know the three years of incommunicado wont matter... when i need my 2a.m friend, that's who i am calling.
here's the line i loved from that forward of yesterday
....but it was a lovely poem all the same and it had this one line which i quote
Be the kind of woman that when your feet
Hit the floor each morning the devil says
"Oh Crap, She's up!"
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
work type of things have taken centre stage yet again, and i do agree with the quote i had on facebook by Rita Mae Brown " A deadline is negative inspiration. Still, its better than no inspiration at all"
so to make things worse, i couple this with procrastination and what i have is a stress adrenalin junkie's dream come true....but all's well that ends well. and while some important lessons have been learnt, has come to some kind of full circle too....
the neck and shoulder pain notwithstanding, i have given up wearing that damned collar. it is socially embarrassing and physically uncomfortable and that isnt the combination in which i like things. and so contrary to the advice of everyone around...i've chucked it for now and lets hope i will be ok. i am however sticking to the stipulated time limits for using the laptop etc. will have to start exercises soon....
that apart, the summer has been relentless...and it tires me to even talk more than i have to! (yeah it happens to me sometimes!) ... havent had good mangoes yet and summer's almost over... damn!! that's the one thing i really look forward to in the summer.... still hopeful tho....
i now have to go...with nothing in particular to say, i'd better sign off.
Friday, April 24, 2009
We bought mangoes. far from being luscious, they were forced ripened and disgustingly sour. all that precious sugar to salvage them. i am going to wait another couple of weeks to eat them.
on another note, in order to bring some relief to my house handling, rid myself of tedious trips to the supermarket every month and prevent murder every time the maid tells me we have run out of washing soap, i made a visit to a hyper mart and stocked up on non perishables especially washing and cleaning agents for 6 months. shopping of any kind makes my heart go thump thump... under the guise of "for the house" makes it even better! the biggest pain was to find storage space for all of this, but its done... it did lie on the kitchen floor for 2 days, but we (mostly K actually) finally put everything away. Let's hope this twice a year buying helps. though i have been strictly buying only the stuff i have on my list, the temptation to buy needlessly is always there, multiplied by the times i visit the super market. for the perishable staples, i should now just use home delivery!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Its official! I am a cyber addict. To pay for the sins of being an addict, I was on bed rest for 3 full days with no TV, no computer and no sitting even. For a few months now I have had this pain and tingling sensation in my right hand….ok not a few months, more than 6 months now…I always put it down to being tired and not being fit enough which meant bad circulation. When I began to sleep and wake up with numbness all over my right hand, I panicked and went to see a specialist.
The thing with doctors is, either they scare the crap out of you, or reassure you so much that you take them lightly. All that was to change when I met Dr. let's call him BC, a specialist in spinal and sports medicine, he took one look at my back and hand, pressed here and there and pronounced, if I could live with this pain for 6 months, I don't need to be treated! Of course he was being sarcy! He said that bad posture and lifestyle (read too much of computer usage and reading while lying down, plus some other abysmal habits) had caused the spine to develop some shift in the centre of gravity. Which meant the weight of my head was multiplied three times over and putting too much pressure on my spine…. While I will spare you the details, let me tell you this is a habit forming condition and needs to be reversed. First off he put me on three days of bed rest. Yes people, lesson learnt in the fact that life wont collapse if I lie in bed. Sloth is one thing I enjoy. But being forced to stay in bed is something else. You should have seen K's face when I told him. He was like "yeah I told you to get off that damned computer"!
It's a week now since I went to the Doctor, all the xrays etc are fine. i have this collar I need to wear to support my "strive to correct my posture" drive. Its damn hot in hyderabad and wearing this thing that makes me feel suffocated isnt the best thing that happens. But hey, for a head screwed right onto my shoulders and a relief from this pain in my arm, I will wear this. Yeah I also have to do some exercise etc. mostly it needs a change in my lifestyle.
So that it then people. I am fine, and well. just a little tired with myself. Angry too that I allowed this pain to remain for long enough for it to get so acute.
Monday, March 30, 2009
funny how much you think you will get done and how much you dont! also, how little sleep one needs when one has friends around. i got by with less than 3 hrs sleep every night and no day time naps! we had two sets of friends over on friday. sat chatting about single malts, books and management styles the entire night. the next day i prayed the maid would turn up and not turn back at the sight of the vessels that awaited her. she didnt, and i made her chai to keep her humoured.
two plays by an amateur theatre group were watched on saturday. it was fun, the plays. the second one elevated by the quality of acting. it did make me take the announcement of auditioning for thier next production quite seriously! nothing like seeking some spotlight. hung out with friends again post that. while i couldnt keep my eyes open and hit the sack at 5 a.m (damn this old age), k and my friend b called it a night (sic!) after having breakfast at a famous idli stall. while they slept till late afternoon, i woke bleary eyed to let the maid in, and then the sound of her anklets kept me awake (and irritated i may as well add). when she left, i couldnt get back to sleep and so put myself to use and cooked lunch.
i dont know how many people will see the sense in repeating the last two days again on saturday night. i know my maid for sure must have thought i was soft in the head. just pulled together by the big fat salary i pay her. fact is, we always have friends over on most weekends, and i am terrified that i'll be left to do the dishes. yeah call me spoilt if you like, but i hate doing the dishes, almost as much as i love to cook. thankfully i live in a country where household help is affordable (atleast for some more time now...). so while the weekdays see the usage of about 2 plates, glasses and spoons and maybe a pot and a pan thrown in, on the weekends that we entertain, i have almost all of the crockery i own waiting to be washed. so my first thought on a morning after a party is "please god, send the maid"
anyway. the weekend ended early on monday morning after hanging out with some more friends. we did call it an early night because it was a work week and our friends have a school going child.
i dont know if i felt energised or tired. i did have a wonderful time, so i felt definitely better than before.
Friday, March 27, 2009
this weekend looks promising. we have a couple coming over tonite. tomorrow i watch a play with my girlfriends, and nothing yet planned for sunday though i am hoping to go to church. i feel the need for this, so i can calm myself.
the week that's gone by hasn't been the best. i am so glad to put it behind me. nothing earth shattering. but it gave me a gripe. much like some bad case of an itch, i could'nt stop scratching and aggravating it. i have been doing too much thinking....magnified by the fact that i seem to have no idea what to do next, amazed that something so small can be made a mountain out of in your head!! i've been exasperated, irritated, disinterested and angry all at once and more than i want to acknowledge.
i dont know what is causing unrest... ok, i know, but i wont write about it here. yet. :)
hopefully the weekend will help make me feel better...... plus i can always make lists to help me along!! happy weekend... :)
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
it was the first trip since our goan holiday in september. the first since i got back to work. i didnt realise that i was really sort of desperate for this break.
a week spent slothfully....i ate (much more than i have the heart to acknowledge), napped "every single afternoon" and yet managed to sleep again at night, shopped and generally chilled out. ... its amazing how time flies when you are having a good time. for weeks, i wondered if 8 days was too much idle time....since all the people inside my head know what a control freak I am.
amma and appa were so amused that i jumped up and plated and photographed food (soon after amma slaved and cooked it!!) for Escapades... i need to get those posts up and running. there are a tonne of things to do - routine to get back into, stop wanting another break to get over this one, closet to organise, gifts brought back to be sorted and given away, work to get done, blog posts to write, photos to be sorted and uploaded and oh! real food to be cooked and consumed.
its just past 3 a.m and i have no idea when i will finally fall asleep...in between writing this post, i fell prey to hunger pangs and had a bite of instant noodles. not the best thing to have a carb assault at this time... but what the hell! i'd better post this before i start craving caffeine.