Wednesday, July 25, 2007
i am very excited about a book i picked for myself....i cant remember the last time i bought a book....but when i saw it on the shelves of Landmark in blore i knew i had to have it....i have Anthony bourdain on my nightstand...no it isn't Kitchen Confidential, but it is the one called 'nasty bits' it'll do for now.....when you look at those dreamy eyes looking at you from the cover of the book...you'll know i am saying the truth when i think he is one of the sexiest 50 yr olds i have ever seen......all 6ft 4 of him and more!! am i gushing already?? i'd better stop!!
just back from bangalore...rachel's doing great and effortlessly made K and me baby talk and was just so pleased with herself at having lorded it over two otherwise sane human beings.....she's just so perceptive and observant...i wonder what would happen if there was a scrolling marquee on her forehead to capture her thoughts.....and boy does she have a mind of her own....i also think that in the not so very distant future, she'll be ready to effortlessly take over the actress mantle from your truly!! she was delighted with the cat cushion i made for her...the two ears are so convenient for her to suck on...its a sight to see her go into raptures when you show it to her in mock surprise!!
the days before we left for bangalore were such a daze......with the chocolate classes, shopping (of course at general bazar)...... sewing the two baby beds and pillows for rachel......i was up till 1.00 am, i also had to wind up a class on saturday that i finally cancelled...dealt with a truant maid, packed and had to clean up .... but it wasnt over when we left home, cos we had a few errands to run including buying some prized cuts for my brother who still cant come to terms with whats available in bangalore....... i was so relieved to be led to my seat on the plane....all i needed was bad weather to stall our landing and go on a merry go around 30000 feet above sea level watching in horror as lightening bounced off the wings of the plane!! i was so happy to finally be 'driven' home!!
i came back with a gift of a hand mixer and am gonna hit the baking books soon!! the only ill of this enthusiasm is that neither K or i need the extra pounds that baking so freely offers.......am also thinking that i should finally get my hair trimmed......its all the way down my back now but could sure do with a couple of snips.....i know i have rambled on and on...but it is my blog isnt it??
Friday, July 13, 2007
Saturday, July 7, 2007
i couldnt have begun on a more auspicious day for chocolates!! apparently today is world chocolate day!! how cool is that?? Amma called this evening for a blow by blow update on how my first class was today and after i gave her the details that were threatening to take as long as the class did, she told me that today was "world Chocolate Day" ...(i had no idea we had days like this!!) so i think i got off to a good start...i had two people today. today's session was actually held on the request of an old colleague, so i had it from 9-12 and another lady responded from the ad in the paper and joined in.......till late last night i was up doing stuff....getting things ready and laying out all that i would need.....the last time i did this it was casual and never charged for it, now that that equation has changed, i think i had jitters on whether i'd be able to do justice.....
but whatever jitters i did have disappeared once i began....cos once a trainer always a trainer!! i always said in all my sessions that anytime of the night or day, if there was one place that i enjoyed being in, it was the training room....and there i had 3 dreamy eyed people, weaving chocolaty fantasies around what i was saying!! i was happy that i had an enthusiastic bunch and they were as excited as the kids they'd left behind!! Since it was a small group, everyone participated and we were absolutely on scheduled......made the chocolates, wrapped and packed them and before i realized, session 1 of round II was over!!
i have a session lined up for Tuesday and one on Saturday with registrations for both. i plan to have two per week, one on the weekend and one on weekdays for the benefit of working and non working people.....thats how things are going to progress.....
having slept barely 5 hours yesterday, once i cleaned up and had lunch, i hit the sack for a nap and had a lovely afternoon siesta....as woke up my first thoughts were....i could really get used to this!! i had to answer all the inquiry calls i missed since i wasn't answering the phone while the session was on...then i called both the mothers of the family with a full report....to day that they were very happy is an understatement....i think they were more concerned about the fact that i should'nt overwork myself...(yeah ...and this is when i have just started!!)....
anyways, the day was eventful and a good beginning to something more i hope...i'm looking forward to my next session on tuesday.........till then, happy chocolate day!!
Thursday, July 5, 2007
yesterday while chatting with N, my dear Bostonian friend.....i was telling her how apprehensive i was about beginning anything new and that i am so scared of rejection...who isnt, but in my case, as K says, i give it too much control over my life than it deserves....i am far too affected by public opinion...in fact k keeps telling me, i get hassled over the opinions of people i don't even like!! for starters she couldn't believe what i was saying...apparently (pat on the back) i have done a good job of overcoming it or /and hiding it well!! so then i was thinking all the while i was telling her this about the various things that i want to do, but don't due to various other reasons...mainly being that i chicken out!!
anyways, among many things i have been toying with the idea of conducting a chocolate making class. i attended one in nov and the first thing that struck me is that i can replicate this....i mean i am a trainer and good at explaining and demonstrating....it's pretty simple, but needs loads of patience, plus it's easy on my time too cos i'd do it maybe twice a week or so....everything ruled in favour...i mean i couldnt think of a damn good reason why i wasnt taking the plunge except for the fact that i was chickening out...........so with N online, i mustered up the courage and dashed off an email, asking for a listing in the local paper......once the send button was pressed, there really wasnt anything else to do!! in fact i was haunted by what N said "i mean whats the worst scenario, loads of chocolate for you to eat at home!!" wow it sounded so simple when she said that......now all i have to do is wait, for calls if there are any and then get this show on the road....
this has made me feel good, and suddenly i have lots of things that i want to do and am thinking of..... i mean the fact that my dream of a restaurant isn't going to be fulfilled anytime soon was very shattering to me...so much money, much more than what i can raise has dashed my hopes for now....and starting something on a smaller scale to avoid costs is not going to be worth the effort of time and energy...so that goes onto the back burner till we take a re look next year...if it is the last thing i do before i die!!
writing is going very well. in fact better than what i'd imagined. i need to concentrate a little more and stop playing online games when i am supposed to be writing!! thats a discipline i need to get into my system.......K is still working the nights and sleeping the days....are all writers like this?? hmmm i dont know..... i'll just be so glad when he puts the final fulls top...i mean i am very happy that he is writing and is so passionate about it...but like any wife, i am so concerned that this will totally screw up his body system....the odd hours, the lack of sleep and all that acidity!! i wonder how the other wives's of writers or anyone working odd hours handle this though.....
like our good friend AB who told me this story and insists on calling me Xanthippe, the wife of Socrates, was the only person who'd tell him to stop talking about his philosophy and get to the dinner table...alternatively she'd dunk him with buckets of cold water!! i mean how cool is that....for one it gives me solace that i am not a weird wife, for two, i get to be called Xanthippe which is rather more exotic
Monday, July 2, 2007
I’ve had one of the most beautiful, serene, magical beginnings to a day today…..i cant remember another time that I have felt like this when a day begins and I know that it isn’t often that this will happen to me, mostly because I am not a morning person….am not an early riser and I cant remember the last time I woke up before mid morning for half the world’s people…and since quitting work, there isn’t any compulsion either….
If you have been reading older posts you will know that K is keeping odd hours and I have been having listless sleep…today began in a similar fashion….i woke up around the time he came to bed…and within a few minutes I was wide awake and he fast asleep…..i hoped that I would drift back but no such luck….all I could think of was the steady rhythm of breath that only comes from one in deep slumber land…I was jealous and quite miffed…like it had been taken from me and given to another on a silver platter….tossing and turning, covering my ears (which works if all else fails) didn’t work and I just lay there waiting for either sleep or some sign of day break….(I am chicken….terrified of the dark) after a vain battle of two hours and a headache threatening a grand arrival and extended stay, I mustered enough courage to get up from bed….open the doors and pull back the curtains……I am about to describe as best as I can what hit me after that…..
There is something about how early morning sounds and smells…it doesn’t smell or sound that way for the rest of the day for sure…..it wasn’t dawn yet…my!! I never thought I’d use that word, let alone experience it….but it perfectly describes the time when the sun isn’t here yet but there’s hints of light…..having gotten my bearings, I contemplated putting on my shoes and going for that promised walk…. I chose against it and wisely I think now…..i made myself a steaming cup of tea and sat in the ‘other’ balcony…the one we use much lesser than it deserves….simply because it faces the east and I didn’t want to miss the spectacular show the sun was going to put up…so there I was at 5.30 a.m sipping chai…listening to this particularly noisy and boisterous gaggle of swallows on the eucalyptus nest door….with the chill that the monsoons have brought in…waiting for the sun to show….and nothing prepared me for what I saw…..its 6.15 a.m as I write this…and the sun is playing hide and seek with the clouds…brilliant hues one minute and gone the next…every myriad hue from flame to brilliant white I have watched in the last 30 minutes….i am not tempted to do anything else….not read, not surf, not talk to anyone……I’ve been sitting here and soaking up this experience…even the noise from the trucks that drive by on the highway nearby seem in perfect harmony…….I don’t think there’ll be an encore for a long time now…I don’t wish for one too….perfection shouldn’t be repeated….thats the magic…….its bright now….there’s no blazing sunlight but a brightness that’s perfect….its cool and breezy…and these birds do know how to sing a chorus allright!! Solitude has never been so blessed for me ever before ………