Monday, March 30, 2009

ahhh!! weekend.......

the weekend is over :(. i loved it..and am not so happy that it went away. sometimes, i cant decide what i like better, action packed or couch vegetation weekends!! this one was action all the way.

funny how much you think you will get done and how much you dont! also, how little sleep one needs when one has friends around. i got by with less than 3 hrs sleep every night and no day time naps! we had two sets of friends over on friday. sat chatting about single malts, books and management styles the entire night. the next day i prayed the maid would turn up and not turn back at the sight of the vessels that awaited her. she didnt, and i made her chai to keep her humoured.

two plays by an amateur theatre group were watched on saturday. it was fun, the plays. the second one elevated by the quality of acting. it did make me take the announcement of auditioning for thier next production quite seriously! nothing like seeking some spotlight. hung out with friends again post that. while i couldnt keep my eyes open and hit the sack at 5 a.m (damn this old age), k and my friend b called it a night (sic!) after having breakfast at a famous idli stall. while they slept till late afternoon, i woke bleary eyed to let the maid in, and then the sound of her anklets kept me awake (and irritated i may as well add). when she left, i couldnt get back to sleep and so put myself to use and cooked lunch.

i dont know how many people will see the sense in repeating the last two days again on saturday night. i know my maid for sure must have thought i was soft in the head. just pulled together by the big fat salary i pay her. fact is, we always have friends over on most weekends, and i am terrified that i'll be left to do the dishes. yeah call me spoilt if you like, but i hate doing the dishes, almost as much as i love to cook. thankfully i live in a country where household help is affordable (atleast for some more time now...). so while the weekdays see the usage of about 2 plates, glasses and spoons and maybe a pot and a pan thrown in, on the weekends that we entertain, i have almost all of the crockery i own waiting to be washed. so my first thought on a morning after a party is "please god, send the maid"

anyway. the weekend ended early on monday morning after hanging out with some more friends. we did call it an early night because it was a work week and our friends have a school going child.

i dont know if i felt energised or tired. i did have a wonderful time, so i felt definitely better than before.

Friday, March 27, 2009

long weekend

three days of a weekend. this is how i prefer my weeks, a long weekend, with a mid week holiday thrown in! one half of the first day is anyway over as i type this. i slept for most of it! damn the Tv and reruns of friends that keep me awake past midnight. while on friends, i cant decide which one i like the most, lets just say, i am in momentary love several times during each episode.

this weekend looks promising. we have a couple coming over tonite. tomorrow i watch a play with my girlfriends, and nothing yet planned for sunday though i am hoping to go to church. i feel the need for this, so i can calm myself.

the week that's gone by hasn't been the best. i am so glad to put it behind me. nothing earth shattering. but it gave me a gripe. much like some bad case of an itch, i could'nt stop scratching and aggravating it. i have been doing too much thinking....magnified by the fact that i seem to have no idea what to do next, amazed that something so small can be made a mountain out of in your head!! i've been exasperated, irritated, disinterested and angry all at once and more than i want to acknowledge.

i dont know what is causing unrest... ok, i know, but i wont write about it here. yet. :)

hopefully the weekend will help make me feel better...... plus i can always make lists to help me along!! happy weekend... :)

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

insomniacal rambles

its thursday...just past midnight on wednesday. what the heck am i doing up at this hour? dont ask.. i cant sleep... difficult to think that its three days already since we got back from our break.. k and i spent a week with his parents.... it was something i so badly needed, that on the day before we left, so zoned out was i, that i was hardly congnizant of what was being said around me!!

it was the first trip since our goan holiday in september. the first since i got back to work. i didnt realise that i was really sort of desperate for this break.

a week spent slothfully....i ate (much more than i have the heart to acknowledge), napped "every single afternoon" and yet managed to sleep again at night, shopped and generally chilled out. ... its amazing how time flies when you are having a good time. for weeks, i wondered if 8 days was too much idle time....since all the people inside my head know what a control freak I am.

amma and appa were so amused that i jumped up and plated and photographed food (soon after amma slaved and cooked it!!) for Escapades... i need to get those posts up and running. there are a tonne of things to do - routine to get back into, stop wanting another break to get over this one, closet to organise, gifts brought back to be sorted and given away, work to get done, blog posts to write, photos to be sorted and uploaded and oh! real food to be cooked and consumed.

its just past 3 a.m and i have no idea when i will finally fall between writing this post, i fell prey to hunger pangs and had a bite of instant noodles. not the best thing to have a carb assault at this time... but what the hell! i'd better post this before i start craving caffeine.

mid week.... back at my desk after a week's break... need to be at a client's place in less than half an hour to get some work done....i have no idea what i want to call this post... i only know i need to write here... more often than i am doing now... i have felt ill at ease in this space for the past few months now... i come here, log in and cant post anything... not because i have nothing, its because i have too much... too much to process....too much to say...then i buckle and sign out....i miss my random thoughts...

Thursday, March 12, 2009

where have you been?

random thoughts is on its way to becoming rare thoughts... i haven't posted here in ages and i sometimes feel like screaming out loud..... why the heck cant i post here more often? dont ask me...the more i wonder why i am leaving this space to rot.... (not much actually) .... the more i draw a blank....

its been a pretty hectic time for me with work and life in general. There is a routine that has fallen into place and assignments at work now having fixed days. i even had to set up a calendar for myself to keep track of what i was doing last month...yeah that's a first in 2 years! i still feel a lot of time is being wasted in faltu i am researching something online and get sucked into reading websites one after the other following links and before i know it a few hours go by. i have been meaning to get a grip on that. its kind of like a necessary evil, getting out of hand once in a while. :)

on the home front, things have been a little quiet. k has had this horrendous cough making him sound like a ghoul at times. we made the trek twice to the other side of town to go to his trusted doctor who alone "is the fountain of health" for K. so he's a little better now. i am a little disappointed that i haven't yet gotten to top of things. there are days when i see the laundry basket overflowing and not enough vegetables in the fridge.

tomorrow i set off for a week long holiday to ahmedabad. k's parents stay there and for me it is all day long sloth, just lie on the jhoola like a lifeless creature and the best i do is perhaps set the table and chew my food when i eat....amma thinks (bless her!!) i am overworked and in need of rest, this was the case even when i was not all i do is chill. k and i havent stepped out of hyd since september which is a loooong time by our standards. and this is the first time i will be going away for a week since going back to work. am really looking forward to this and as i type this, i realise, i am not really paying too much attention to what i am saying here!this time in ahmedabad i want to go visit the sabarmati ashram. i have been there several times, but never seen this place. hopefully i shall be able to remedy this. plus ofcourse i plan on doing loads ofshopping....yeah you heard me..... loads!!