unlimited randomness and the ending of the year..............


no this wasnt the title i had wanted........this isnt happening to me.......i spent 2 hrs on a post and then lost it because i had disconnected the net!! i can cry right now........

i was musing about how it now is the retail segment, from the mithai wala around the corner to the huge malls that now tell you what season it is, time of the year, festival etc....that santa jostles for space with the dried mango leaf thoran.......that i wish this goes beyond the surface and we really become tolerant with faith/religion or the lack of it........

this year is almost at the end....what a year it has been.....the most significant is my leap of faith in giving up my job!! infact it is K's leap of faith.......its one thing to say "do what your heart wants" but another thing to actually support your partner in that journey..........i feel selfish and guilty by turns....but am loving it!!

amma's month long trip here was perhaps her happiest ever......even if i say so myself....we went relative and friend visiting, shopping (at charminar......it thrills me each time, bargain hunting and the stuff....whew) and then some, repotted the plants on my balcony.....added some more....i now have about 70!! made baby clothes (brother and sillu are expecting in jan) spent time together.....went to visit her closest cousin in rajahmundry in andhra......she's suddenly hit you with her 83 years...such a shock since i saw her only last year.....i'm glad we went......a grand lady who's the most famouse obs gyn with a frcog and has delivered half the population of the district....has been a sportswoman, been in a live in relationship and has 2 adopted daughters.....wow...she was always a lady to admire.........glad we spent time with her......

the one thing that intrigues everyone we meet or those who came over to visit when amma was here......the question that i was asked the most.....why i quit a perfectly good job.......well the real reason that i didnt want to do it anymore isnt good enough i believe.....everyone always thinks that there has to be some other reason....that i didnt do well, didnt get along with my boss, am pregnant, and better still!! the next obvious question that follows with surgical precision is how am i spending my time........well lets see....am busier than i was when i was working......i am cleaning the house, kitchen, cupboards, cooking, feeding people, shopping for everything i need and dont need, surfing the net, reading the classifieds section of the 2 newspapers i buy, baking, taking salsa and chocolate making classes, pottering in my balcony, making baby clothes, writing and reading, painting, sleeping and watching bigg boss, having real conversations with K, meeting friends, watching old movies.......and this isnt enough....well i never cared for public opinion....so i smile....and say, "i'm just relaxing at home"......this ticks them off further and i thrill at it!!

i have so much to say and i know that i am rambling on......i will be at it again for sure....i just think that i am so content right now....and thankfull for all of this.......