one of those random posts

sometimes the silence inside your head makes you imagine a beautiful tune.....mellifluous voices singing a beautiful song and then you realise it isn't what it appears to be.....i woke up this morning with a beautiful dream, still lingering around....a dream where it was a perfect world....all the things i wanted were in it...and yet i was chasing something,......i was chasing my real life... because all i ever wanted was right here....in it....

for the people who are still reading this blog, if this doesn't make much sense...forget it and dont try to analyse....

Ten days ago, i turned a year older. None of the turning a year older dramas happened (thankfully). it was a lovely day. I spent some time with K, did a bit of shopping and yet, the biggest thing on my mind was the workshop i had the next day and the stuff i needed to get done. At best, I'd call it a working birthday. What was remarkable tho, was the number of people who wished me. Calls never stopped till past 11 p.m and there were more than 200 wishes for me on fb. I was overwhelmed to say the least. i am not one for big celebrations. almost always, birthdays at home meant quiet dinners with extended family. Plus, now it means i get to do all the work....plan, invite, cook and the piece de resistance - CLEAN UP. i can easily give it a pass up and prefer to do a quiet lunch or dinner.... 

this birthday a far cry from the one i had last year... nursing a sore body after trekking into the Valley of Flowers.... birthdays have been so much a representation of my life... some remembered, some not....some large scale some quiet and close....when i look back, i cant remember birthday's other than 2-3...and just one from when i was less than 10... i remember the first b'day in the current house tho... cos it was the first multi group party we had...that full year we had parties one after the other...till K told me he didn't enjoy 'people' gifts and he'd much rather have 'thing' gifts! so out went the parties and for a few years, in came the gifts... now its back to nothing!

Its been a tranquil year tho.... demons rising up now and then, but on the whole, its been good. workwise things are status quo and i guess will remain so till the wind blows strongly some side...the most important change this year has been K and me focussing on health and finally joining a gym. after many attempts at yoga and walking and all of this ably aided by my imagination, i buckled and joined a gym near the house and that has been the single most significant thing i have done this year.... its a little premature, since its been less than a month, but far from being disgusted at myself, i feel motivated and energized. i have health goals and not weight goals now... 

family time has been more....especially with newest member being added, Rohan my nephew and godson.... i think i fell in love the minute i set eyes on him which was the minute he was born ... i havent been able to see him as often as i want to lately ... but i think there is a quick remedy for that soon.... amma's visits have become far and fewer between owing to her health....but the times spent, especially the last visit has been the most enjoyable one, both for her and me! I've grown closer to a few friends, farther from a  few others and  the inner circle of warmth and comfort is becoming more and more obvious.....i wish we traveled a little more than we are currently tho. to spend time exclusively on non family related travel is something i'd like to see a lot more of this year... all in all, no regrets... just a great life i am thankful for.